saying goodbye! (next to our new car)

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an attitude of thankfulness.


I've been thinking. As I was cruising this morning in my new-to-us Buick Intrepid (ha ha) with the moonroof open and Matthew West wailing on the stereo, listening to my kids giggling in the backseat, I couldn't help but just feel blessed. Sure, we've had a lot of crap going on that was undeserved and annoying... but all the good stuff? All the really important stuff? The stuff that they write songs about, the stuff that leaves a legacy? I have all that. I love my kids so much. Even when they are bickering and being crabbypants, I'm so blessed to have such wonderful, fun, happy kids. And my Rob. Well, who wouldn't love him? He's so good to me. And I'm right with God. No big ugly secrets in my brain. It's all out there, in the open. I'm thankful for that. I've screwed up, but it's not hidden for anyone to dig out, you know what I mean?

I'm just happy. It's funny to me because I didn't think I would find happiness again until we moved. That a lot of major things would have to change before I would feel that warm squishy feeling in my heart. Instead happiness just kind of snuck up on me, right here in this little tiny house. I start thinking about all the amazing answers to prayer that God has given us, given me lately. Things I have been praying about for months, even years. I can feel it coming. The winds of change, a gentle breeze picking up momentum, about to change our whole life's direction. I'm ready. I'm trusting God for the next step. The next leap.

I guess this is what peace feels like. thank you God.

a lovely spot on the border

we are a happy family. so blessed. (but I need to learn to stand up straight, I know)

delicious!!!

the kiddie table! (passing on the tradition)

Momma's home-made apple pie!!

My sexy hubby pitching in to help!

Kim making her famous cheesy potatoes. Mmm.. cheesy... (not to be cheesy or anything!)

Time to go girls!!

acting like children!

shopping @ Walmart in Podunksville, AR. :)

Me and my girlfriends, Kim and Lori.

whew. home again.

Another long great weekend. Got to spend some quality time with my girlfriends in AR. We do a big traditional thanksgiving dinner every year with our friends, so it was time and we threw it together. Very fun. The kids tried to kill each other, of course, but I think overall it was time well spent. Scrapped a few pages, so ready to put together my HOF entry. Getting anxious to get it mailed and then I think I can really get serious about packing at that point. I'm so ready for it. I think we are down to 39 days or some such number. So invigorating! Well, I don't have a ton of time, Rob and I are wanting to snuggle on the couch, so I'll post some pictures and be on my way. Toodles!

have I mentioned that I'm ready to move yet?

42 days. Just for the record. I'm so ready. And mad. Anxious to walk away from here forever. And yet I don't even feel like I can really vent about all of this since it's an open blog (that no one reads). I'm just looking forward to moving on and forgetting about every phone call, every incident, every horrible aspect of this job, this place, this time in our lives. I hope that time really does heal all wounds and I can look back (in brief tiny glimpses) and remember the happy times we've shared as a family and forget all the frustrations of these past three years.

Enough of that. Scrapped a tiny bit today. Mostly dealt with the checkbook. Made a stellar dinner. Prayed for my mom, a lot. If anyone really is reading this, pray for her. I don't feel like I can really divulge right now, but my heart is so heavy for her right now. She needs prayer. She may even need a miracle.

All in all, a rough day. Glad it's almost over. Hopefully that means I'll have a brighter tomorrow.

goodbye!

a big happy family.

w/ Grammy Dee and Papa John.

trick or treating.