What Are You Feeding?

(last night's sermon, birthed from my Synoptic Gospels course)

Tonight we are exploring two characters in the Bible:

Judas. Some referred to him as a zealot. He started out passionate about Jesus. He began to follow Jesus with good intentions. He followed Jesus faithfully for a season. But somewhere along the route, he began to be discouraged and discontented. Jesus no longer fulfilled his expectations. He became disgruntled and sought to change that by betraying Jesus to the religious leaders of their time. Judas tried to force Jesus’ hand at being the political leader that he had anticipated. Perhaps he thought Jesus would resist arrest and start a war. Instead, Judas’ betrayal led to Jesus crucifixion. Judas wound up having a very limited understanding of who and what Jesus was. Judas is remembered as a traitor who ultimately committed suicide because he could not live with the cost of his betrayal.
Peter. He too, was zealous for Jesus. A little hot headed. He was a devout follower of Jesus, even to the point that he wanted to sit at Jesus right hand in heaven. But, Peter failed fantastically at the cross. He denied Jesus three times, but is that what he’s most known for? No, Peter didn’t give up on Jesus after his great failure. Instead, he took his discouragement and used it as fuel to live a more passionate and righteous life for Christ. Even unto death.

See, we all have a battle in our mind. We are feeding something. Either we are like Judas; being discontent with what God is doing in our life. We get upset, or dwell on the negative. We compare our lives and circumstances to those around us and play the “if only” game. (if only I had more money, or was better looking, or if I was more talented, if I was more popular) and we are consumed with thinking negative and destructive, selfish thoughts.

The thing about negative thoughts is that they grow as they are fed. In the beginning, like Judas, it starts with a small thought, a small sin. It may be only be an ungratefulness or a bad attitude. But we feed it and it grows and gains strength and stature. In Judas life it was the sin of discontentment, and perhaps feeling that he could do it better, well, it grew in his heart until eventually there was room for Satan himself. This is why it’s so crucial to not allow even a little sin to fester in your heart.

(Remember the illustration of a little toilet water – it poisons everything).

Little sins never stay little. That’s not Satan’s plan. The thing about Satan is that he hasn’t changed his tactics. So if it worked for Judas, he’ll likely try it on you. And, because humanity is the same now as it was then, it will likely work on you. Satan will whisper discontentedness into your spirit, and if you listen to it, it will grow.

So let’s think about Peter. He failed massively. Like epic, world class, crash and burn failed. He denied Jesus during his trial, during this terrible persecution. The gospels of Matthew and Mark tell us that when Judas came to betray Jesus and the high priests began to take Jesus away, the disciples scattered. Isn’t that weird? All these people who were passionately following Christ (just after last supper, up all night with Him in the garden, and claiming absolute loyalty to Him), well the moment the going gets rough and it looks like they may get in trouble for being with Him, they scatter. They run off and hide and leave Jesus to deal with it alone. Not Peter, instead he falls back and quietly follows them.

Isn’t following at a distance the same thing as abandoning?

So Peter is hanging around in the courtyard of the temple where Jesus is being persecuted and questioned. He is recognized as being a part of Jesus’ group. Three times. He denies knowing Jesus adamantly. Three times. The rooster crows and instantly, Peter recalls Jesus’ words. “Assuredly, I say to you that this night, before the rooster crows, you will deny Me three times.” (Matthew 26:34). I can’t imagine the pain that hit Peter’s heart at that moment. When you are suddenly made aware of the depth and brevity of your sin, it takes your breath away. In fact, Mark 14:72 says “And when he thought about it, he wept.” Peter, brazen, zealous, bold Peter, broke down and wept. And it was significant enough to be included in the scriptures.

When I read this story of Peter, my heart aches for him. Just as my heart aches when I realize my own sin. I know that feeling, realizing how very wrong you are, how prideful and shameful you truly are at the core of your being. And in that moment, we have a powerful choice. We can choose to bury that feeling, to pretend it didn’t happen and it doesn’t hurt. We can choose to decide that it’s too painful and difficult to follow Jesus, to decide that you will never be good enough anyway, so why bother. To decide that the cost of being a disciple is too great, to throw in the towel and live for yourself.

The irony is that self-living is really Satan serving.

Actually, I think that is Satan’s master plan all along, convincing us that we are living for ourselves, only to realize too little too late that we are actually serving him. Feeding the beast of self, well, it’s all-consuming and it will ultimately destroy your life. Because of free will, you can choose “to have the fleeting enjoyment of a sinful life” Hebrews 11:25, but it is crucial to remember “the wages of sin is death, but the gift of God is eternal life in Christ Jesus our Lord.” Romans 6:23 That verse is true, whether you believe in Jesus or not. Heaven and hell are real, even if you don’t believe in them or care that they exist.

Remember I said you have a choice at the moment you are aware of your sin?

There is a second, higher road. You can choose Jesus. You can choose to turn from your sin and remember the price that Jesus paid for you on the cross. You can repent, literally turn from your sin, and receive the grace that Jesus offers. Jesus’ blood that He poured out for you on the cross, it covers your sin and you are given another chance. You must remember that the blood of Jesus came at a high cost. That is why it is important to not live in a ‘I can do whatever I want because I’m covered by grace’ attitude. It makes a mockery of what Jesus did and suddenly His great sacrifice becomes trivial. We need to remember that Jesus paved a way for us, where there was no way “and through him to reconcile to himself all things, whether things on earth or things in heaven, by making peace through his blood, shed on the cross.” Colossians 1:20.

Instead we need to have a holy awe and understanding of what Jesus did when He died for us. We need to remember the cost of His sacrifice. We need to live out our lives in response to that gift. We need to turn from our sin and pursue holy and righteous lives as an act of worship and thanksgiving for God’s incredible love for us.

See, at the point that Peter was confronted with his sin, he made that choice. He rose from his great and terrible sin, repented, and recommitted his life to Jesus. He went on to do amazing things for Jesus.

His sin was not the end of his story, unlike Judas. I’m sure you can all tell me what happened to Judas. (there’s a reason people don’t name their kids Judas) And I can tell you for sure that his self-serving did not get him to a place of fulfillment and peace. Ultimately, in his pursuit of his will, he lost everything.

Peter, on the other hand, gave up everything as a willing sacrifice to Jesus, and ultimately gained everything.

Peter went on to witness Jesus’ crucifixion, and ultimately his appearances after resurrection. In fact, at one point he even gets the opportunity to affirm his love for Jesus three times and as a response Jesus reconfirms Peter’s position as faithful disciple. Peter goes on to witness Pentecost and preach his first sermon. He later went on a missionary journey and was instrumental in preaching the gospel to the Gentiles, or non-Jews. See, even after Peter sinned, God still had an amazing purpose for his life.

So other than the choice after sin, what else made these two men different? Judas fed his discontentment, fed his sin, and like I said, it grew out of proportion and consumed his life and eventually his very soul. Peter, grew his faith. He acted out in bits of faith, and chose faith daily. And faith, when fed, will grow astronomically and before you know it, you’ll find yourself doing huge, impossible things for God. Matthew 19:26 tells us "With man this is impossible, but with God all things are possible."

So how do you feed your faith? Let’s back up. How do you feed your sin and discontentment? By dwelling on it, by giving yourself over to it. I hate to say it, but it’s so easy to be consumed by sin. When you first sin, you recall it, you turn it over in your mind, you give yourself over to it. As the sin grows in your life, it becomes more consuming, you find yourself counting down until the next opportunity to partake in it again. (think Edmund and the Turkish Delight in Chronicles of Narnia)

So let’s turn the table and think about growing faith.. How do you grow faith? Start dwelling on it, recall it. Bring it to the forefront of your mind often. Read and memorize verses that grow your faith. “Meditate on these things; Finally, brethren, whatever things are true, whatever things are noble, whatever things are just, whatever things are pure, whatever things are lovely, whatever things are of good report, if there is any virtue and if there is anything praiseworthy—meditate on these things.” Phillipians 4:8

Plant truths in your heart and choose to think on those things. Pray and ask God to grow your faith, and then evaluate your reaction when He brings about an opportunity to walk in faith.”

Rob and I have done some huge things out of faith in God. Believe me, faith is how this Iowan corn-fed girl lives in Texas right now.  We’ve sold houses in faith, packed our belongings in faith, written checks in faith, moved across the country in faith. We’ve believed for family members in faith. We’ve reached teenagers in faith. We’ve named babies in faith.

Almost every time I tell our faith story, someone inevitably tells me “oh, I could never do that, sell all my belongings and move across the country,” or “how could you let a bunch of teenagers name your baby?”

And I have to agree with them, I could never, in flesh, on my own, do any of those things either. But I can do those things through Jesus, because He has grown my faith over the years. “I can do all things through Christ who strengthens me.” Philippians 4:16 I did not start out life with this mountain-moving faith.

But I did start out with a little bit of faith. And a deep desire to grow it. So I asked God, in faith, I sought out faith-building verses, and I prayed for opportunities to grow my faith. I surrounded myself with people of faith. And guess what? I have faith now. Because I fed it. Daily.

Matthew 17:20 tells us "I tell you the truth, if you have faith as small as a mustard seed, you can say to this mountain, 'Move from here to there' and it will move. Nothing will be impossible for you." That scripture has played out in my life over and over.

The thing about things that need fed--they are living things. And when they are no longer fed, they die.

Faith is a living thing. Judas starved his faith because he fed his sin. The biggest, most on-fire Christian will choke and wither up when they stop feeding their faith or when they allow sin to fester in their lives.

To me, there is nothing sadder than a formally ripping-it-up Christian who is now living for themselves, totally resistant to God’s Word.
Faith is a continual process. Kind of like a houseplant. Faith needs to be fed to continue to grow. And as much as it dies when you stop feeding it, it flourishes it when you give it the nutrients it needs.

It is my continual prayer for you that church won’t just be something that you did in jr high or high school. Rob and I will fail you guys if you graduate high school and you graduate Jesus. Really, you will fail yourselves. And ultimately, your story won’t be much different from Judas, unless you are sold out for Jesus.

So how to go from being a comfy Christian to being a radical, faith-charged Christian?

You have to choose what you are feeding. I want you all to take a moment and think about what you are consuming mentally. What is your thought life like? Are you feeding sin? Or are you feeding faith? For some of us, it’s time to go on a diet. A diet doesn’t mean total deprivation. Not a fast, but a diet. A thoughtful choice about what you are taking in.

Some of you have listened to this message and are like, I don’t even know what you are talking about. But maybe part of it rang true. The part about sin, where you know that it’s wrong and you choose to partake in it anyway. The part where I said there’s a heaven and a hell and it doesn’t matter if you believe in it or not. You have an opportunity to believe tonight, to take part in Jesus’ grace. To realize the depth of his sacrifice for you. To understand that you and I and everyone in this room is lost and dying and going to hell, an eternity of suffering, without the grace of Jesus. All you have to do to change your destiny is to believe in Him acknowledge your sin and ask Him into your heart, Lord over your life. And then choose to grow your faith.

Conquering Fear

(the sermon I shared last Wednesday night, definitely a 'preaching to the choir' message)

Fear is a word that puts a shiver in your back, isn’t it? (scaredy cat)

You guys deal with fear on a daily basis, don’t you? Name some of your fears…

Me, I’m afraid of spiders. Always have been. Got bit by a big hairy wolf spider when I was about Sarah’s age, and never really got over it. Really, bugs in general pretty much freak me out. Ask Rob. J I frequently have nightmares about spiders, bugs, being bitten or stung or at least about to. Didn’t help that Arachnophobia came out while I was in jr. high. I watched it, beginning to end, in gross fascination. Had nightmares for weeks! (trailer)

They didn’t even show the worst part, when the spider crawls out of the ladies nose. Ew.

There are little fears; like failing a test, or tripping up in front of cute guy, or forgetting to put on deodorant.

There are medium sized fears; like failing a class, or a grade, fear of getting hurt or sick, fear of losing a relationship, fear of never fitting in.

There are major fears; fears that can shape your world view and alter what you think about yourself… Fears like the fear of failure, fear of terminal illness, fear of death (for yourself or a loved one), fear of change, fear of the unknown..

All of us face fears at some points in our life, maybe even every day. And for some people, facing fear is a constant hang-up in their life. The thing about fear is that it’s a growing monster in the closet. The more you feed it, the greater it grows. And fear, is never from God. The Bible has some awesome things to say about fear, but the issue there is that if you never crack your Bible open, you will never find out God’s truth about fear. I’m praying that God will give each of you a hunger for His word, like you’ve never had before. (share my experiences with God’s word lately)

“Fear not, for I am with you; be not dismayed, for I am your God. I will strengthen you, yes, I will help you, I will uphold you with my right hand.” Isaiah 41:10

“The Lord is my light and salvation, whom shall I fear? The Lord is the strength of my life; of whom shall I be afraid?” Psalm 27:1

“I sought the Lord, and He heard me, and delivered me from all my fears.” Psalm 34:4

“For God has not given us a spirit of fear, but of power and of love and a strong mind.” 1 Timothy 1:7

In fact, the only appropriate fear in your life; is the fear of the Lord. He makes it abundantly clear throughout the Bible.

“I will show you whom you should fear: Fear Him who, after He has killed, has power to cast into hell.” Luke 12:5

“In the fear of the Lord there is a strong confidence and His children will have a place of refuge.” Proverbs 14:2

“He will fulfill the desire of those who fear Hi, He will also hear their cry and save them.” Psalm 145:19

Not like a scared of God type fear (He could smite you), but a holy reverence because He is awesome. Think about an experience that rendered you speechless, like meeting someone famous or powerful, or witnessing something incredible in nature like a hurricane or a tornado (share my Niagara experience). You are in awe of that situation. God is like that, only a gagillion times more awesome than our imagination can ever begin to fathom. The more you get to know God, the more you will have a holy fear of Him, a reverence, an amazement of who He is and what He is capable of.

Now, when you are thinking about your fear, the small ones to the big ones. In your minds eye, place that fear next to God. Realize that God is so much bigger than your fear could ever grow to be. Take that one step further, and place your fear in God’s hands. Let Him lift it from you.

A very good friend of mine had this quote on her FB wall a few weeks ago. It was very eye opening to me. “People often suffer the most by anticipating suffering that never happens. They, therefore, have more to bear than God give them to bear.” (old Dutch poem)

I’ve been praying about this message for two weeks. I felt like a week ago that God was asking me to speak to you guys about fear. Our God has a sense of humor, doesn’t He? Personally, we are walking through a pretty precarious time in our lives. But I know that you guys are too. Anyway, I’ve really been growing in my faith and trust for God lately (attribute that to regular scheduled quiet times and a deep desire and request to grow in that area of my life). But last night, as I was trying to sleep, all of my fears where creeping in to the edges of my mind. It’s so tempting, especially in the middle of the night, to dwell on them, stir them up in your heart and get all upset about something that you can more than likely do nothing about. Rob reminded me gently, what I was speaking on this evening. (gotta love a husband who tells you what you need to hear) So I lay there, and prayed, and asked the maker of the universe to calm my heart and wash away my fears. And He did. And I got a great night’s rest.

The reality is, that God created you, He knows you, and He cares for you. He wants to see you grow, to nurture you, to show you His love. He is trustworthy, far more than any person you will ever encounter here on this earth.

A verse that I have leaned on heavily the past few months is this…

“Cast all your cares on Him, because He cares for you.” 1 Peter 5:7

We don’t need to walk in fear. We just really need to walk with God. And remember to hand our fears and our failures to Him.