Anna-thology

why do I constantly give more than I have?

Do you know what I mean? I feel like I'm constantly giving away pieces of me that I don't have to spare. And what's worse, the list of people giving back anything of significance is smaller all the time. Some days I just feel really taken advantage of. Not even that, taking advantage implies that the user knows what they are doing, I don't think it's even that. I think people just think it's easier if I do it because I do it all the time and it's working so why fix it? Does that make sense?

Sometimes I just want to be selfish. I want to lock the door and say that's it, I'm all out and don't ask me again!! Or even better, I want to be pampered, to be waited on, to be thought of first, rather than last or not at all. I want someone to ask me how I feel about things, what I would like for dinner, if I would like some time to myself.

Wow. Really having a pity party tonight. Sorry folks. Show's over, go home.